It's pretty before it turns the city into a slushy mess!

It's Christmas Time In Contoocook

Date: December 24, 2013 at 1:37 pm- by Ali- Comment(s): 33

It’s been a while!

The excuse-truth for being anti-blogging: I’m Crohnsing pretty hard.

The latest attempt at making me feel better: methotrexate. It's a scary little drug I'm supposed to self-inject weekly. Tomorrow will be my first attempt at REALLY trying it myself. Stay tuned. The syringe scares me a bit.

The latest attempt at making me feel better: methotrexate. It’s a scary little drug I’m supposed to self-inject weekly. Tomorrow will be my first attempt at REALLY trying it myself. Stay tuned. The syringe scares me a bit. That’s not my hand. This photo is just so festive. I love it.

I know I know I know I know. It’s the never-ending shitstorm, and that’s not even supposed to be a pun. Though the puns are practically unavoidable at this point. So it’s OK.

In spite of the yearlong health drama I’m in the midst of, spirits are high. I’m spending the week up in good ol’ Contoocook, NH, doing all the annual celebratory things we do: the always-exciting Target run…

Cheap shampoo! Cheap deodorant! Cheap cereal!

Cheap shampoo! Cheap deodorant! Cheap cereal!

…the cookie baking, the fireside card playing…

My view.

My view.

…and, new to the schedule this year, a trip to the lawyer’s office to sign my life away (my dad seems to think I need to establish my Power of Attorney stuff, so that’s taken care of — goodbye, freedom and organs).

Tonight we’ll go to a Christmas Eve party and tomorrow we’re going skiing. By Saturday, the house will be full and we’ll do “real” Christmas then with Ryan, Michaela, Tyler (!!!) and Brian (he gets exclamation points, too!!!).

Tyler putting the sock monkey on the top of his tree. He seems excited about it.

Tyler putting the sock monkey on the top of his tree. He seems excited about it.

Another reason for not being so big on the blogging lately: I truly don’t have much to say. Weird, I know. But this holiday season has been pretty standard as far as city celebrations go.

I rode a CitiBike for the first time.

Those things weigh like 600 pounds. Not exactly the Lexa I'm used to...

Those things weigh like 600 pounds. Not exactly the Lexa I’m used to…

The long coat got in the way a bit.

The long coat got in the way a bit.

Probably should've adjusted the seat height, but I was lazy.

Probably should’ve adjusted the seat height, but I was lazy.

I saw plenty of lights.

I saw The Nutcracker (New York City Ballet’s is my performance of preference), the Radio City Christmas Spectacular (I know Mrs. Claus! I know Mrs. Claus!) and a bunch of other shows.

"Everything is beautiful at the ballet..." Name that classic line from that classic musical and you WIN.

“Everything is beautiful at the ballet…” Name that classic line from that classic musical and you WIN.

Brian and I got a mini tree and it sheds too much. I think it was dead the day we bought it, but we loved it just the same.

If you pick it out and carry it home and set it up...

If you pick it out and carry it home and set it up…

...I'll make it look amazing-ish.

…I’ll make it look amazing-ish.

I watched some holiday movies (I’m trying hard to adore Love Actually, but I don’t know…I find some of those characters to be mighty punchable) and listened to holiday music (I’m doing that at the moment, in fact, and it’s really distracting me from whatever I’m trying to write).

Brian and I found The Little Mermaid on TV the other day. We watched the entire thing. This was Brian's face the entire time. He loved it.

Brian and I found The Little Mermaid on TV the other day. We watched the whole thing. This was Brian’s face the entire time. He loved it. He will not necessarily be psyched when he discovers this picture on the internet.

I got snow on my jacket.

It's pretty before it turns the city into a slushy mess!

It’s pretty before it turns the city into a slushy mess!

I went to holiday parties.

At Brian's holiday party (with Coach Cane!)

At Brian’s holiday party (with Coach Cane!)

...and at my company party. Bowling. I bowled a 39. In case you're not well-versed in the art of bowling, that's a horrible, embarrassingly low score.

…and at my company party. Bowling. I bowled a 39. In case you’re not well-versed in the art of bowling, that’s a horrible, embarrassingly low score. At least Team Dance Spirit accessorized well.

And I tried to distract myself from the fact that I can’t run or, at this point, even spin by taking yoga classes.  I’m fully obsessed with yoga. I can do crow pose and I know how to pronounce a lot of the fancy pose names, even if I always forget what they are. I’m also getting good at not staring at all the “awesome” people during class and focusing on my own “practice.” (Bethany, my beloved instructor, is constantly saying, “Your eyes, Ali, your eyes,” to remind me to…well, you get it. I love her.)

This is in the bathroom at Lyons Den Power Yoga. It makes me feel very welcomed and happy.

This is in the bathroom at Lyons Den Power Yoga. It makes me feel very welcomed and happy.

I got a present, despite Brian and I agreeing not to exchange any gifts this year.

PURPLE BEATS BY DRE HEADPHONES! They are amazing. And noise canceling. And purple. I've never had fancy headphones before.

PURPLE BEATS BY DRE HEADPHONES! They are amazing. And noise canceling. And purple. I’ve never had fancy headphones before.

Being sick definitely puts a damper on things. I’m in the bathroom a lot and I’m in pain a lot, and that’s annoying. I’m sad I won’t be going for a Christmas Eve run, or a Christmas Day run, or any run to wrap up 2013. But I guess that’s kind of the theme of the year, right?

Still, it’s the holidays. And I refuse to not be in a good mood from now until the end of the year!

Get festive, bitches.

Get festive, bitches. Swearing isn’t cute, but I do it anyway. That’s me on the left and Becky on the right, in costume for our “Ellie the Elf” tap routine in first grade. Top notch.

Also, resolutions.

I saw someone post about New Year’s Resolutions the other day, and I was like, “Aw! I remember when I used to make those!” I definitely assumed I hadn’t made any resolutions for this year.

But that’s the beauty of blogging. The internet doesn’t lie. And it seems I did, in fact, resolve to do a ton of shit in 2013.

Guess how much of it I accomplished? LOL?

Let’s find out…

I will stop grinding my teeth. Probably not.

I will fix my pathetic posture. Probably not.

I will do a fishtail braid. I did half of one, one time. It was ugly.

I will go to the Museum of Modern Art. Nope. But I went to the gift shop in SoHo the other day. Same thing?

I will go to the Guggenheim. That museum a few blocks away from my apartment? Nope. Didn’t go there.

I will learn to look both ways before crossing the street. Whatever. I can’t be bothered with this. I’m in a rush. I only resolved to do this because I sort of almost got hit by a car once while crossing the road with my coworker, and she sort of freaked out about it. I was fine. It didn’t even really hit me. It just came close. It wasn’t a big deal.

Yield to ME.

Yield to ME.

I will carry a lighter load. Like, emptying my purse? Yeah, I carry a much lighter load…because I no longer need to travel with post-work workout clothes. Success!!

Here's my "lighter load." Brian helped me pack. Poor Selena Gomez is home alone for the holidays. He's probably so lonely and sad.

Here’s my “lighter load.” Brian helped me pack. Poor Selena Gomez is home alone for the holidays. He’s probably so lonely and sad.

I will use my crock pot. Definitely not. But Brian used it once the other day. So that’s pretty much the same thing.

I will cook spaghetti squash. I bought four spaghetti squashes over the course of this year. I cooked zero of them. I couldn’t cut them in half.

I will spend more time outside my comfort zone. I spent all my time in bathrooms, and most bathrooms aren’t comfortable. Success!

I will run with faster friends. I didn’t run with any friends all year long. Unless you count the 50,000 people I ran the New York City Marathon with. Then yes! Success!

I didn't have a perfect year? Doesn't seem that way from this picture.

I didn’t have a perfect year? Doesn’t seem that way from this picture.

I will be kind. Hahahahahahaha. No.

I will spend less time online. Eh. Probably not.

I will no longer hate-read. I actually did really well with this at the start of the year. But then when I got really really sick and went on medical leave, I was bored a lot, so I brought back a few of those hate-reads. I have eliminated most of them, though. Semi-success.

As always, Brian gets to give me some resolutions to ponder throughout the year. Here’s how I did with his mandates…

Don’t stress over the things you can’t change. I know you’re all probably thinking that I didn’t accomplish this, but I actually think I did. I got much better about “accepting” things this year, especially in the second half of the year. I dropped most of my OCD-inspired tendencies and stopped trying to plan stuff. My consistent goal was to get through each day and just do my best when I could. And sometimes, when I couldn’t muster the energy to do my best, I was OK with that. I was, believe it or not, so much easier on myself this year.

Not relevant, but pretty.

Not relevant, but pretty.

Stop putting things in every corner of our apartment. This was a major fail for the sickest part of the year. I was a slob. But right now, at this exact moment, the apartment is clean. So we will go off that fact and call this a victory.

Run just to have fun. The marathon was fun. No other runs this year were particularly fun, unfortunately. Every run this entire year required at least one bathroom stop. But I got out there when I could, so yay.

RUNNING FOR FUN! SUCCESS!

RUNNING FOR FUN! SUCCESS!

Bike again. I did this! When I first started feeling better this summer, I rode my bike a few times, and on two occasions much later in the summer Brian and I went on two “long” (for me, not him) bike rides (around 40 miles each time, I think).

Be nice to yourself. Always a work on progress, but I’ve actually gotten significantly better at this.

That was fun. And interesting probably only to me. Like I said, I really don’t have a whole lot of update-worthy happenings in my life at the moment.

So here’s a picture of Tyler:

Hahahahaha.

Hahahahaha.

And here’s another photo of Tyler, who was busy negotiating a business deal during Grandmom’s 90th birthday party last month:

Priorities, you know?

Priorities, you know?

Looking back at my resolution success rate, I could easily call this year a “fail.” And in the grand scheme of things, it really was. I accomplished so little of what I wanted to accomplish — going far beyond my silly resolutions — and that was frustrating. But it’s just a year. I’m about to get another one, so I’ll try again. Plus, the fact that I did ultimately get to run the marathon and have the best day ever made up for a lot of the not-best days. And that makes me so happy.

As tough as this year was and as much as I hated so many of the days that passed, I actually did learn a lot along the way.

To be continued…

Happiest holidays to you and your families.

Oh, Ryan, give me a break. I wasn't THAT heavy back then. Lift me higher.

Oh, Ryan, give me a break. I wasn’t THAT heavy back then. Lift me higher.

I love you.

SHARING IS CARING: It’s been a while since we’ve really caught up, so can you talk to me? Tell me about your favorite holiday tradition and also about your biggest resolution fail this year. Or success. But the failures are fun, too!

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